I've come to my own conclusion but don't consider myself "special" in any way. It isn't fair to over generalize people; that puts disparate people into neatly organized boxes, draws borders between what you might label "groups". And I fit in none of those groups you disparage. Neither did Jesus- and, no, I don't compare myself to Jesus in any way but do try daily to follow the "Way" he taught us to find God. We each, imho, are expected to find God by following the way Jesus offered us as a pathway, in our own manner. Love is prerequisite to the path any person chooses.